July 4, 2009
momentous.
hollered by ryanini at 11:11 PM .

i'll never forget this day.

 

 

july 4, 2009. 10:09.47PM.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

today, i'm free. time to go back to my roots. tomorrow, i'll be a better person.

this happened for a reason. all time low, yes. but for a reason, i believe.

irony at it's fucking finest.

thank you.

 




shoot me!!


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mantras corner...

"like all true one-liners, the great ones are often interpreted - or misinterpreted - in a myriad of, at times, contradicting ways..."

"there will come a time when someone walks into your life and makes you realize why it never worked out with everybody else... but when you kept waiting and nobody came, it means that you've already let that one pass you by.."

"when you see something from afar, you develop a fantasy.. but when you see it up close, nine times out of ten you wish you hadn't..."

"love makes you do crazy things.. insane things.. things in a million years you'd never see yourself do.. but there you are doing it.. can't help it.."

"i think having too much idle time on your hands makes you dwell on the things you don't have and the things you know you'll never have.. oh well... and looking at you just emphasizes the things-i-know-i'll-never-have part.."

"do you remember in kindergarten, how you'd meet a kid, and know nothing about them, then 10 seconds later you'd be playing like you were best friends, because you didn't have to be anyone but yourself?"

"love is not about not being able to live without your beloved one.. it's about being individually complete and independent and still choosing to be together.."

"i've always wondered why i couldn't walk away from you.. i guess its because i know that once i do, you will never come after me.."

"technology has made the world smaller, but not necessarily closer.."

"the problem with the future is that it keeps on turning into the present..."

"...people ask not to know the answers but to show that they know the questions that lead to the answers they know.. EIRONEUOMENOS!!!.. "

"it's hard to keep a straight face when the one you secretly love is right in front of you, talking to you.."

"sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.."

"you know what it's like getting up every morning? feeling hopeless, feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong man.. but, at the same time hoping that she still finds happiness, even if it's never going to be with you.."

"apparently, when it comes down to choosing between doing the stupid thing and losing something i think is pretty relevant, i tend to do the stupid thing.."

"whoever said the truth will set you free must've had no idea at all of what the truth is.. "

"love is not blind.. it could see.. it just chooses not to mind.."

"what's on the surface is not always what's beneath.."

"even though the clouds are no longer there, be thankful they passed by.."

"happy endings are for stories that haven't really ended yet.."

"the thing about romance is that people get together at the very end.."

"thou shalt not drink, cheat, steal or lie.. if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.. if you must cheat, cheat death.. if you must steal, steal away from bad company.. if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love.."

"people don't put up walls to keep others away but to see who loves them enough to see what's on the other side.."

"math tells us three of the saddest love stories.. tangent lines who had one chance to meet and then parted forever.. parallel lines who were never meant to meet.. and asymptotes who can get closer and closer but will never be together.."

"how do you know it's over?? or.. does it really matter?? because when it seems that the world has given you all the reasons to move on, still, you hold on..."

"don't frown because it's over.. smile because it happened.."

"friendship isn't about whom you've known the longest, who came first or who cares the best.. it's about who came and never left.."

"it's really hard to go on living while loving someone secretly.. it hurts to see the one you love happy with someone else.. but the most painful thing about hidden love is that it never fades away.."

"just when my mind figured out the answer... my heart changed the question..."

"life is about making mistakes.. the key is to learn from them.."

"you are the one i never knew i've always wanted..."

"i say the most when i verbalize the least...."

"happiness is a choice.. furnish your mind with happy memories..."

"the thing about wanting to risk it only with the right person is that you will never know if the person right in front of you is already the right one to risk it with..."

"i'd rather have an imaginary two-way relationship with a guy that appreciates me back rather than have a virtually non-existent one-way relationship with a guy that's within arm's reach.. i'd rather wait for someone who's on the other side of the world that is willing to work it out with me than with someone that's a stone's throw away and yet won't notice me.."

"story of my life: keep everything at a distance.."

"you won't get anything unless you ask for it.. then if you ask for it and you don't get it, maybe it wasn't worth having in the first place. some things are just never meant to be.. no matter how much we wish they were.."

"if you really don't care about what i say, you wouldn't even bother telling people how much you don't care about what i say..."

"the thing about this whole issue of being plastic is that its like one of those damned-if-you-do and damned-if-you-don't kind of thing.. if u become true to yourself and just ignore them and distance yourself, you're considered one snobbish bitch.. but if you try to be civil and all, you're called being plastic.. great.. GREAT!!..."

"would you consider saying something about another person backstabbing when you don't even have a close relationship with that person upfront to begin with????"

"it's hard when people hardly know you're together.. i don't know why its a factor but when its just the two of you that know your "relationship" exists, it makes it easier to pretend it never existed or simply get out of it.."

"i fall fast... but i fall out of it just as fast..."

"the opposite of love is not hatred... but rather, nothingness... if you hate a person, you still care enough to let him know you feel bad towards him.. but if you choose to genuinely end loving a person, simply nothingness will remain..."

"two things in life one should always remember: NEVER make DECISIONS when you're ANGRY... NEVER make PROMISES when you're HAPPY... emotions are simply fleeting and misleading..."

"when you're on your death bed, you don't think about the days you worked.. you think about the people you loved... but then again... you meet the people you love during the days you worked..."

"sometimes, nothing is enough..."

"everybody's just trying not to be lonely..."

"I WILL NOT GET AHEAD OF MYSELF... be in the moment.. enjoy the moment.. bask in the moment.. do not be some place else.. some place that your not even sure exists or will ever come into existence.. but don't be too much of a dud not knowing your way in over your head, you cant get yourself out of it anymore.."

"i did not come here to tell you i can't live without you.. i can live without you... i just don't want to..."

"the problem with knowing what you want, is forgetting what you already have..."

"we need a witness to our lives.. there's a billion people on this planet... i mean, what does any one life really mean? but in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything.. the good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day.. you're saying 'your life will not go unnoticed because i will notice it.. your life will not go un-witnessed because i will be your witness..' "

"absence makes the heart grow fonder..."

"moving on is a process.. doesn't happen over a couple of weeks.. or maybe not even over a couple of months.. but you will.... try moving on facing forward.. not backwards.."

"everything is just a state of mind..."

"i thought i could be in love enough for the both of us..."

"i loved you first..."

"you are my sweetest downfall..."

"the things we lose will always find a way to come back to us.. even though it may not always be in the way we expect them to.."

"when was the last time you did something for the first time?."

"it's hard not to cross the line when the line keeps on moving every now and then..."

"you can say i'm tap dancing away the remainder of my life.. and thinking that if i dance fast enough, i might forget what i lost.."

"i freakin know i shouldn't go there..... but, damnit, i'll still stop the world and melt with you.. if only you knew!!."

"i wanna be caught up in the rain.. stranded in the beach.. held up by trains.. lahat na!!.. "because i would find you..." "

"i just want to be someone else's.."

"an economist's fatal flaw: HE ASSUMES!.."

"stop forcing things to be reasonable to avoid being unreasonable.."

"sometimes, the end of a journey is the beginning of another one..."

"no one really experiences death.. for to experience something is to bring it into consciousness.. and no one has been able to bring death into consciousness.."

"it is not really death that scares us.. its the time it is cutting short that does.."

"putting off is an art.. and so is cramming.. neither skills can (and should) exist without the other..."

"fear often comes from our inability to be on top of a situation, be in control.. and the prospect of man's incapacity to see beyond what is presented to him terrifies him more than anything else.. death embodies, figuratively speaking, man's greatest fear.. death is the ultimate uncertainty.."

"fixation on hope is man's greatest constraint.."

"some mistakes are too darn good to commit just once!!."

"you don't sulk over the mistakes while your doing them.. otherwise, you'd just spoil the mistake.. sulk and regret over them after you've committed them.."

"to have faith, is to be certain without knowing.. to hope is to expect without knowing.. and to love is to realize the fullness of one's being by emptying one's self and making room for another..."

"to love is synonymous to saying i will never let you die.."

"there's a thin line between forgetting someone existed and accepting he passed way.. love makes that delineation possible.."

"if you want to make an omelette, you gotta break some eggs..."

"a gay guy's worst emotional nightmare: a curious straight guy..."

"we cling on to that small hope that maybe, he's not just passing time off with you but actually investing time.. that he's not just trying out one-liners and what- nots with you for someone else, but making memories with you.. and that the reason why he is so at ease with you is not that he's not worried of being involved, but rather, he wants you to know who he really is and at the same time, get to know you more.."

"because you're hoping you're wrong.. and every time he does something that tells you he's no good, you ignore it.. and every time he comes through and suprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that he's not for you.."

"in every doomed relationship, there comes what I like to call 'the uh-oh moment'.. when a certain little something happens, and you know you've just witnessed the beginning of the end. And suddenly you stop and you think, 'uh-oh, iceberg ahead'. "

"injustice is more profitable than justice.. provided it avoids detection.."

"strange.. but even when you know it has to end, when it finally does, you always get that inevitable twinge: have i done the right thing?"

"it's the one whom i let my guard down that delivers the knockout punch..."

"would you still jump off a cliff if you know you won't land on anything on the other side? or would you rather turn around and admit defeat?"

"it's just terribly unfortunate how i find my way back to an all too familiar rut that i cant distinguish anymore where the past wound ends and the new one begins.."

"dreams are selfish.. they've nothing to lose while the dreamer loses time away unnoticeably.. so when the dream ends abruptly, better be in pain of not getting to live the dream's climax than lose time in what you ought to be living.."

"i'm impossible to forget.. but hard to remember.."

"the world deserves to know you.. and you deserve it too.. don't settle for comfortable.."

"the key is to kill the commitment to the feeling.. not the feeling itself.."

"it sucks when it seems as if you're flipping up a coin that has a tail on either side.."

"why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?"

"things would be a lot less complicated if only people had disclaimers on their foreheads.."

"there're times that i forget we're not what i think we are.. and sometimes, you do too.. now that's the part that's even suckier.."

"you're that bubble i always fail to burst..."

"you've got to stand for something.. otherwise, you'll fall for anything.."

"once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be or lose that person completely.."

"they say, smart people usually have stupid hearts.. i say, with the rate my stupid heart is going, damn, i must be a freakin' genius!."

"don't hold on because you think there'll be no one else.. there will always be someone else.. you've got to believe you're worth more than being repeatedly hurt by someone who doesn't really care.. and believe that someone will see what you're really worth and treat you the way you should be treated.."

"you'll never find the right person.. if you never let go of the wrong one.."

"the first look is accidental.. the second look is intentional.."

"should I smile because you're my friend or cry because that's all we'll ever be?"

"never regret something that once made you smile.."

"patience is not the ability to wait but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.."

"smiling has always been easier than explaining why i'm sad.."

"i am aware that i am less than some people prefer me to be but most people are unaware that i am so much more than what they see.."

"love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools.. it'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor.. and what does it really get you in the end? nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake.."

"no one is ever forced into doing something.. he only gives in.."

"if this whole thing isn't what it seems like what it does sometimes, stop making it seem like it is what it ain't...."

"could all of us be running fast?. should all of us be trained to run fast because that is the law of how to make it in this world?. would there be many who would never be able to run fast, or as fast, because others have been in the game way ahead and for so long??. should some of us, thus, go slow, so we can stop and lift the others who fall by the wayside?"

"what if the reason for wanting to feel one thing is the reason that made you feel otherwise?."

"hell is intimacy without the prospect of proximity.."

"vanity is too fun a sin to commit just once..."

"YOU are my meringue.. sweet but not filling..."

"there's a diffrence between a failure and a fiasco.. a failure is merely the absence of success.. any fool can achieve failure.. but a fiasco, a fiasco is a disaster of epic propotions.. a fiasco is a folk tale told to other's to make other people feel more alive because it didn't happen to them.."

"when happiness deserts you, you don't lie down and hope to high heavens it comes back for you.. you stand up, brush the shit off of you and start walking away.. far far away.."

"forgetting is not the key.. acceptance is.. forgetting just suppresses a lot of emotions and you end up having to deal with them later when they get all pent up.. but once you accept that it was a losing-game from the very beginning, you tear-up for a night or two and know that yes, there was a moment in your life that you tried to give it your all but just wasn't enough.. that you tried to compromise and waited halfway only to be stood up.."

"attention IS NOT affection.. three letters make helluva lot of difference.."

"i refuse to stick around just so i can quench your lack of amusement.."

"when was okay truly just okay?"

"sometimes it's the brain that knows too well what the heart tries to deny.."

"absence - does it really make the heart grow fonder? Or does it make the heart find another?"

"there;ll be two dates in our tombstones but all that's gonna matter is that little dash between them.."

"my enemy's enemy is my friend.."

"never play second-fiddle to your own thoughts..."

"the real trumps the surreal every single time..."

"indifference is a commodity not everyone can afford.."

"reserve yourself for something (or someone) that wants you reserved... otherwise, to hell with it.."

"a friend doesn't go about sneaking behind your back... a friend sneaks around WITH you behind someone else's back..."

"sky's not the limit. it's where we begin."

ladi dadi da


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RYAN. [rahy-uhn]
/Noun/ sui generis; one who criticizes; one who loves ink; one who creatively puts together clips and slides;one who embodies impulsion and spontaneity; one who specializes in both laughter and amusement; one who writes in a ridiculously miniscule manner; one who misses sleep during the most vital of nights; a master puppeteer in a clever yet subtle way.
/Verb/ to smile; to palasyo-nize; to be unapologetically frank; to make things happen; to regress and over think situations that should be taken as is; to be more than what is expected; to be constructively antagonistic; to lose and yet rise to the occasion of dealing with losing; to story- tell unendingly.
/Adjective/ overly rational; surprisingly brilliant; acquired taste; annoyingly resilient; theatrically animated; controversial; arrogantly stubborn; nice-ness.

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